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new blogger address.,..everybody listen up!

2005-07-30T05:59:00.000-07:00

okay guys ..sooo here's the breaking news of the day or night if u're in california los angeles new york...wherever..i've changed over to msn spaces ..so from now on id be doing all the posting there..so ya STICK AROUND
pPS: I DON'T REMEMBER HOW TO INSERT THE LINK IN THE ARTICLE ..
WUD GET BACK TO YOU AS SOON AS I FIND OUT:)!
till the mean time my new url is
http://spaces.msn.com/members/privacymatters/
sorry for the inconvenience..

and the cold doesn't go away

2005-07-26T20:14:00.000-07:00

okay so i had this really nasty cold five days baack and called up a doctor friend of mine to ask what medication to take and he was like paracetamol 3 times a day cetrizine :once a day ,before you sleep ..and i was like aaarghh....im not taking so many medicines.PERIOD. but then obviously considering the dire straits condition i was in i decided to give it a try for a few days or the time till my nose stopped running and i didn't feel the aching pain in my templess and legs..so after two days when all those horrible symptoms associated with the cold stopped i stopped taking the medicines but before i could say"vIOLA"! man, im cured! im again down with the running nose.. the itch in the throat ..the blah blah
okay did i tell you i finally bought that new album by juggy d it has all the latest songs by him,"akheer" being my favourite though i cudn't quite get what it means its still got one of the most beautiful sufi sounds ever heard..have to rush to kaplan now
till i catch you next
keep pedaling:)

whew!..im back and so much has happened since

2005-06-14T05:21:00.000-07:00

okay first things first big apologies due to all those reading my blog for such a long long absence have been quite busy with things since exams got over and vacations started and as you can guess there's so much to talk about my fingers are literally flying on the keyboard ..
now what were those things that kept me away so long?
well firstly congratulations are in order my sister just got married amd yes i mean my real sister to her not so gr8 looking one yr(i think..) BF so right after practicals got over i was shopping like mad for the engagement and right after engagement got over i was packing like mad to go to this trekking expedition that gets organised once a year ...so things have been pretty crazy since and had i a laptop with me during the trek i would have recorded every one of the truly crazy things i lived through..came back earlier than planned started shopping for the marriage things got out of control left for hyderabad in a week for my industrial training stayed for two weeks had the most swell time of my life ..watched movies at iMAX saw all those historical monuments and had coconut water every evenings,..pure bliss!
okay so now that im back im planning to join coaching for my GRE exam just checked out the centre today and lets see.. looks like a pretty good place to meet some hot hunks;-)..
till i catch ya next keep the faith

studying is not as bad as it seems

2005-05-11T05:05:00.000-07:00

what with my annual practicals going i really don't have much of a choice but then again in all this crap i think that is the only thing that still lends some meaning to things..honestly i wouldn't mind studying all my life at least as much as i can ..organic practical up next and i have to say thats one tough nut to crack but i'm game..!:)
till i catch you next
(holiday,vacation..what's that!?)

notting hill

2005-05-08T12:03:00.000-07:00

make believin' we're together that im sheltered in your heart ...
but in and outside i turn to water ...like a teardrop in your palm...
why is finding true love so hard ..no i mean seriously i am still of the old school of thought ..idealist romantic dreamer but then seriously what is it that im looking for...never made sense to me how people could hook up so easily...i mean i always knew if a guy was not right for me the first time i talked to him..or maybe i don't ..i think i do ,..but still i believe in the pit of your stomach one always knows when someone is made for you and well, when someone is not quite made for you...saw 'notting hill' tonite and its been ages since i met and saw some really genuine guys..no hangups ,no complexes ...and well someone you would love spending your entire day with ..who takes you out for ice cream at night ,cooks lunch for you and generally makes you have a good time ..someone you can just depend on rock solid strong..there for you rain or outpour ..and well someone you can share all your jokes with .,.laugh like you just ate a big fat elephant..and well someone who loves you for you and not how rich you are or how much money you have...do such people still exist ...maybe thats why falling in love is so hard
the touch of your hand tells me u'll catch me whenever i fall...
you say it best when you say nothing at all..
oh by the way i think ive got a new crush..blame it on the bad boy 'hugh grant' looks

physical pharmacy

2005-05-06T05:38:00.000-07:00

think ive never studied for a viva as hard as i did for this one..got spreading coefficient and kinetics 1 for the experiments and had a real problem with the readings but it worked out fine in the end ..also for a change felt pretty confident in the viva ..apart from one or two, could answer almost all the questions asked..
came back home had south indian for dinner and checked out 'lucky'..rather liked it salman's always a favourite but even the movie is well made ..great songs (favourite being the adnan sami number..shayad yahi to pyar hai )..great landscapes ..the girl looks her part too of being an innocent schoolgirl n all....

second annual practical

2005-05-04T05:03:00.000-07:00

had my microbiology practical exam today reached fifteen (...well almost )minutes late and well the synopsis was quite okay as in only one question was asked and i think i did well ...thereafter had my practical exam ,got the gram staining of m/o and i identified mine as coccus ..gram positive the examiner was pretty cute..and the second experiment was agar slant demonstration ..thereafter the viva was a real drag mostly thanks to my turn coming so late ..had to wait for almost two hours or more n in between bouts of hunger(..special mention to 'king khan' who got me 'kurkure' :) anxiety..frantic scurrying around for the questions asked by the external to whoever came out of the 'green room'(!) i think i did okay in the end...oh by the way its ages since i read a book
music playing in my head..where are you ..when i was hurt and helpless.........

first annual practical

2005-05-03T01:47:00.000-07:00

so it was my first annual practical today and i think it went quite okay ..inorganic chemistry might not really be a piece of cake but then if you study in a subject oriented way you'd sail through it ..next is microbiology tomorow and then they'd last for almost two weeks i think ..
anyways so wats up with me..nothing much really studies studies ..and more studies ..some two days back this guy called me up in the evening round about five i think and he goes like ....im a friend of "niks" and well i got your number from him coz i wanted to know what are the future prospects of pharmacy as a career (..he was asking about his cousin sister who's just passed her boards) so obviously i went on waxing eloquent to how bright an option it is but the funny thing is that before i knew we were talking about quite some personal stuff that finally ended with him asking me if i wouldn't mind staying in touch with him ,..and guess what since then apart from exchanging those occassional casual sms ,..he msged me today wishing me best of luck for the exams prefixed with ....MY DEAR (..!!?) i think im going to give him the cold shoulder for a few days..:)
wat else ..big news ..."K .LAS" is apparently all gooey eyed about this particular girl from management faculty that he wants me to fix him up with(..and well i thought he had the hots for me...heard from hassnain she's quite a looker..)and so now im pretty excited about playing matchmaker..
anyways gotta run now...have to dash for the hostel accomodation form and the deans letter for the upcoming summer training (yipee...! u bet im excited...)see you later

it can not get any better than this

2005-04-23T22:59:00.000-07:00

went to see 'hitch' the day before ..oh gawd !one amazing movie it is i mean honestly definitely worth more than a watch ..esp liked the part in the end where they don't give a damn about how they're shaking their b*** ..but they don't make guys like' will smith' anymore (..:))! yes i never thought i could actually have a crush on WILL SMITH ...(i mean will smith..willy smith ..no way!:)..)but you watch the movie and you'll fall in love with the charachters..,very real ,very genuine ..
checked out a new hang out place too last night TC ..actually went to 'saket' first but was denied access to this happening place' B' due to overcrowding ..so then reached TC and good thing too coz they don't even charge you for entry,great music ..numbers that i hadn't heard since ages came on air ( and when the DJ played 'floyd' i knew i had come home..)the best part being nobody gave a damn to what anyone else was upto, basically everybody was having a good time..
so till i catch you next
keep tuning in

pathophysiology

2005-04-18T00:49:00.004-07:00

had my pathophysio exam today ..ever since got this crazy real short haircut from Harrry 'the great' (told him i don't want it so short but those devilish razor scissors in his hand and nobody could stop him snippety snap!aargh..felt like giving him a haircut for a change ..)seems people are more keep on lavishing attention on me rather than their exams..not that i mind though
anyways the point is had an absolutely pathetic pathophysio exam today and no its not some internal sessional paper but my final annual university exam
feel like piece of shit
when will i get serious

pathophysiology

2005-04-18T00:49:00.002-07:00

had my pathophysio exam today ..ever since got this crazy real short haircut from Harrry 'the great' (told him i don't want it so short but those devilish razor scissors in his hand and nobody could stop him snippety snap!aargh..felt like giving him a haircut for change ..)seems people are more keep on lavishing attention on me rather than their exams..not that i mind though
anyways the point is had an absolutely pathetic pathophysio exam today and no its not some internal sessional paper but my final annual university exam
feel like piece of shit
when will i get serious

pathophysiology

2005-04-18T00:49:00.000-07:00

had my pathophysio exam today ..ever since got this crazy real short haircut from Harrry 'the great' (told him i don't want it so short but those devilish razor scissors in his hand and nobody could stop him snippety snap!aargh..felt like giving him a haircut for change ..)seems people are more keep on lavishing attention on me rather than their exams..not that i mind though
anyways the point is had an absolutely pathetic pathophysio exam today and no its not some internal sessional paper but my final annual university exam
feel like piece of shit
when will i get serious

imagine

2005-04-12T00:05:00.000-07:00

i did a google search with the word "imagine" and guess here's what i found ..

Imagine there's no heaven,
It's easy if you try,
No hell below us,
Above us only sky,
Imagine all the people
living for today...
Imagine there's no countries,
It isnt hard to do,
Nothing to kill or die for,
No religion too,
Imagine all the people
living life in peace...
Imagine no possesions,
I wonder if you can,
No need for greed or hunger,
A brotherhood of man,
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...
You may say Im a dreamer,
but Im not the only one,
I hope some day you'll join us,
And the world will live as one
ps:written by 'John Lennon'

on being ME

2005-04-04T00:59:00.000-07:00

gimme love gimme baby gimme gimme love ..oh lover boy ever since i saw you hmm hmmm hmm na nana ..gimme love ..absolutely love this number by alexia quite some time since i heard it wonder how it came to me now..
okay so here i was studying like a madcap the night before for the pharmacology exam stayed the entire night up ,well almost considering if you can discount the two hours sleep in between and the periodic lazy moments now and then ,,yes in between bouts of JACKIE mania(..!! now who would think about that old dog but i ..hehehe..GAWD im sorry if you are reading this sir but can't help but laugh at the sorry state of affairs ..ahhh.. there's comedy in irony!)) and school times i pretty much DID study for it..early morning standing on the balcony ,the insecurity getting to me at times,, three hours. two hours.. half an hr left.. no time left to make targets ,,forget about the deadlines ..would just be happy to complete a swift reading before TIME and this time think did pretty well with my revisions and all..but the funny and very irritating thing was that just didn't feel like writing in the exam hall ..i mean how crazy can i get ,, ..considering the way i studied for the goddamn paper ud think id be itching to let it all come out ,but the true blue libran (read moody..unpredictable..lazy..intelligent.actually 'ME 'comes in many 'avatars' ..so hey don't get me started..!;)) that i am, i didn't feel like putting pen to paper ..like really working my answers out into some real marks..so i just wrote enough that i supposed would get me passing marks (.. what was i thinking ..knowledge is power...some drink at the fountain of knowledge while others just gargle..PROFOUND ,,)and now it turns out that obviously on hindsight im not exactly happy with my paper and lets hope to god i don't flunk this one!..
till i catch you next
i need a chill pill

eggjam time

2005-03-28T01:43:00.000-08:00

thats exam time in case you were wondering and yes it does feel great to be back after such a long time doing what i love to do hmmm so wats the latest lowdown ..first exam today, organic chemistry went pretty bad.. lets hope i pass have a lot of studying to do for microbiology.. physical pharmacy might turn out to be an albatross around the neck .Honestly for the first im really scared about doing well in my papers think partly due to the high expectations at home coz supposedly this time around ive been studying relatively more than the first year ..don't want to disappoint them really but hate when people expect you to do well just because you expect yourself to do better ..hmm heavy duty stuff gawd.. dont mess up things this time..
and please pass me in organic chem:)
love u all

total control

2005-02-25T00:42:00.000-08:00

okay i admit it im a control freak i like things done my way not only when to comes to matters concerning me but also matters pertaining to people close to me and i absolutely hate when things don't go according to MY WAY ! maybe thats why im not really into PR n pple dealing but absolutely love my books ...one world where im the boss ,where everything is perfect ..clean good straight total control ..pure bliss! maybe thats why i love my blog so much:)!

falling to pieces

2005-02-21T01:22:00.000-08:00

my life is currently pretty disheveled so to speak assignments have to be done with files completed and revisions for the finals started considering ive just about a month to go or maybe less( coz of the impending third sessional practicals before the finals )think it wouldn't be wrong to say I BETTER GET STARTED AND GOING !whew would chanelize that into sumthing more consructive ...
betcha!

hey did you say sumthing about valentine's day?

2005-02-11T23:54:00.000-08:00

okay so i admit its valentine's day well almost considering the way my batchmates are reacting ud think everyday of the week gone by was a valentines day no but seriously is it such a big deal (and no im not saying that the grapes are sour coz i don't have any..)i mean honestly WHAT IS THE BIG DEAL ABOUT HAVING A BF/GF?you don't have to have some torrid affair to feel young i mean youth is not a time of life it is a temper of the will it is the predominanace of courage over timidity ,of the love for adventure over APPETTITE FOR EMOTIONS..really being young being alive means wanting to change the world not just sitting on your a**(pardon my lang. but thats just to drive home the point..)waiting for things to get done but actually going out there n roughing it on ur own sure enough its not as rosy as the red roses on a valentine's day but then i think when you live like that you are "forever young" and each day is a valentine's day

every breath you take

2005-02-03T21:31:00.000-08:00

yes i am finally going to see the sting concert on the 6th feb at the dilli habitat grounds pritampura undoubtedly one of the biggest musical performances of 2005 im going to reach a bit early n grab the front row seats though i don't think there is going to be any seating arrangement but to get a full eyes view of sting ooh sting wud be awesome ..........i mean i can't believe it IM GONNA SEE STING LIVE! really how big can it getjust wish the rolling stones would come more often :)
hey by d way think i forgot to say how much i absolutely love my parents..hey guys ur the greatest truly madly deeply:)

my best friends wedding

2005-01-31T01:08:00.000-08:00

had been looking forward to this wedding for the past week or so and well even planned to diet ,exercise a week before it( which unfortunately didn't go quite according to the plan..:))anyways all said and done got ready for the big nite face scrub ,hair wash at the last minute blow dry had planned on an absolutely stunning make up but couldn't find any liquid eyeliner ..hmm so did the bestest of what i could absolutely loved the strawberry tasting pink lip gloss but think ate most of it by the time we reached the venue ,..so basically i was this chirpy bubbly full of life grl ready to have a blast but honestly speaking the wedding turned out to be such a sop i mean even my partiese much more happening than that ..hmm the crowd was quite simple actually so had the most rocking time splurging on food (it is not quite as bad as it sounds ..:)) i actually enjoyed myself on banana ice cream,n moong dal halwa..well sort of..had been looking forward to seeing my ex bigtime crush but i guess in my ms. hard to get lady marmalade act i got a bit too intense and frightened him away..oh well and when i finally did get to talk with him towards the end of the day i had no mood or energy to apply my brains for a decent conversation..i guess thats life:)

staying alive

2005-01-29T01:44:00.000-08:00

okay so wats happening in my life..competitiveness ..being efficient, no wasting time ,time management , last night i did a overnight meaning stayed up the entire night completing my lovely microbiology project and still have to absolutely have to finish three more projects by the end of the weekend
hey so wat did i do today and yesterday..okay lets see got home from college at around two in the noon after the micro lab saw the australian open semi final between hewit and roddick and was willing for hewitt to win all the time( i love his cool dude act i mean he's one really hot cool stud if u know what i mean ...he just stays put there ..no showy american tough guy attitude and keeps playing ball hitting good strokes time after time stays cool works mart but has obviously worked on his fitness the past few years ..CMON hewit hey but you know think deciding btw safin and hewit is going to be a tough one coz i wud equally like marat to win ...) then compiled all that material for micro project till five in the morning ,heard wicked hour at one , made instant noodles wen was feeling so damn hungry ,slept for a good six hrs and came to college after lunch which reminds me that honestly one should keep a fast for a day every weeek irrespective of ur gender ..coz it just feels so good for a change wen ur stomach is flat wen ur just doing ur work like an automaton and u just feel good...
till i catch ya next
stay alive

ye dil maange more

2005-01-26T23:12:00.000-08:00

the only way to do well in studies is to have an insatiable thirst for knowledge ..to not only do what is being done in class but to do a little more ,a little extra ,to walk that extra mile ..to simply stick it outto keep coming back to class day after day after day ..to never be content
till i make more new self and worldy wise discoveries
ciao

online diary vis a vis bridget jones diary

2005-01-17T21:05:00.000-08:00

you know maybe like yesterday or day before that i was just sitting in bed under the quilt and there were these absolutely great english nos. some of them going back to my schooldays playing on radio and i cudn't help thinking that nothing beats a normal hard cover bound bridget jones's diary i wanted to record my thoughts so much at that pt. of time but didn't have access to the net
anyways exams just got over yesterday and obviously though im sitting in college right now there are no classes being held
would keep you posted
see ya

the art of giving exams

2005-01-04T22:15:00.000-08:00

im warming upto it .no please don't get any ideas im talikng about the art of giving exams..two gone seven up ..so u reach college at fifteen minutes to nine half panting half shivering from the frigid cold panting because you are tense,cold and there are a thousand things on your mind and ur running to ur faculty building trying to save time ur scared,terrified you are pacing up and down the parking in front of the administrative block,flipping through the pages,sometimes reading aloud sometimes still for a minute ur brows knit in concentration.. ur twenty minutes late in the exam, snatch the answer sheet and question paper at almost the same time and run through the questions..is it relief or paranoia..u scribble through the first question but realize ur still short on time u almost feel like strangulating the stupid m.pharm student who can't help peering over her shoulder everytime she walks(.. that' dictator 'walk ..)beside you ..u manage to get the fourth question over with amidst all that confusion in the last ten minutes and walk out.. relieved happy u discuss the paper with the first person u see..
u get back home have your lunch no fixed plan ..might go to sleep depending on how much u've slept the night before, study a little but hysteria strikes at the end of the day get a raincheck on the course content and get in the study mode 'flow' nine o'clock after..

the ordeal continues

2005-01-04T01:35:00.000-08:00

had my first theory paper today maths and biostats ..had been studying for the past two three days for it ,so went pretty well ..i think ..let's see ..the two questions on chi-square test i tink should be correct,now coming to evaluation of the limits ,think should pass through that as well, completed three of the total four questions within the the first one hour and obviously got laid back in the next one hr. with the result was rushing through my 'first principle differentiation' question panicking in the last ten minutes with two parts halfdone but luckily memory,intelligensia..good sense like a crack of lightening came to my rescue to help me scrape through them..microbio up next
its been ages since i saw such a good sunny delhi winter noon ...so cheers to that
till i catch you next
enjoy the sun